Yes it is that time again, my birthday. There was no big count down or surprise party or sky diving but it did come anyhow, sort of like in the Grinch, it comes no matter what we do ;)
I think a lot of people feel like 30 is a OMG MILESTONE! so I figured I should too. Except I don't, sort of, clear as mud right? At 25 I was pretty scared of what 30 might look like, but now I'm thrilled to be here (beats the alternative right?), and I'm ready to BRING. IT. ON.
I'd like to take this time to tell my younger self a few things.
At 18 and 19 I'd make sure that I enjoyed my brand new husband, and that we'd just get in the car more and drive places. I'd make sure to let myself know that things will never be how you planned, but they will be better than you ever dreamed.
At 25 I'd tell myself that you're doing a great job as a mom, and things won't get easier, but they won't really get harder either, they'll just change. (Gabe was 8 months old when I turned 25). Be confident in yourself and your choices. They'll work out okay.
Yes you should go to school, no it won't be for a vet tech it will be for nursing (blows your mind right?!) why didn't you think of that at 18 or 19? I think because you'll be a better nurse now than you would have then.
In the 30 years you might not have done anything that the world will remember or will write about but you do have a family that loves you and that does make you important. I know that you will continue to grow and change and push yourself, just keep swimming!
In my next 30 years (hey I know that song!) I'd like to have some fun. I'd like to conquer more fears and work on being braver. I want to try things that scare me, go places jut because they sound fun and try to just say YES to things that come my way more. I want to spend more time with my family and really really enjoy them, and not worry so much about the other eleventymillion things that I "think" are important, because what's important is right there in front of me.
No one could really have prepared me for what I'd be like at 30. The things about myself that have stayed the same and those that have changed. I feel more comfortable in myself now that I did in my 20s. I feel like this is me and take it or leave it. I feel that I'm going to always be a work in progress and that is a good thing. I mean after all if we get stagnant we'd die so we SHOULD be a work in progress and always growing and changing.
I'd like to tell my husband that he's amazing and that I love him and I know exactly how lucky I am to have found the love of my life so early on!
I'd like to tell my parents that I love them, and that I'm really grateful for all the hard work they put into me, even when we drive each other crazy.
I'd like to tell my brother that I'm glad we're friends now and we hang out. I wasn't sure that we'd ever get there but now I can't imagine not having him around.
And now I'm crying, silly me!
Your 30s look like they are going to be great, embrace them! Love them! Don't hide your age, embrace it and be the best you that you can be!! Thirty can just BRING. IT. ON!
Happy Birthday to me!