Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Finding your people

I once had a very wise friend of mine tell me that the really lucky nurses found their people early and if I was lucky enough to do that, stay there and never move.  She's probably too busy in med school now to even be reading this but she knows who she is. 

Today at clinical I'm pretty sure I found where I'm supposed to be.  I've had an interest in hospice nursing since I started school and today I had a patient that was going home with hospice.  I know what that means, and she knows what that means.  We had an amazing day today (at least I hope she did because I know I did).  Her day went better than several previous ones, that's for sure.  She may never know it but this woman probably impacted me in a profound and life changing way.  I know that there are people out there waiting for me.  They need me, we just don't know each other yet and hospice is the place that I want to be. 

I'm aware that a lot of people think I might be crazy, and they might even think I can't do it, but I know better.  I know that deep down inside me I FEEL something.  I feel connected and I feel drawn.  I only hope that I can be the person that those people need me to be.  I know that being a hospice nurse might not be easy, and that many days it is going to be extra hard but that's okay because there are going to be a ton of wonderful days in there too. 

If I made today better for my one patient then I did a good job.  I'm so thankful for the chance I had to meet her.  I'm thankful that my instructor gave me that chance, even though I know she was nervous about me being ready for it. 

Today I did good, and I want to say thank you to that special patient whom I will carry forever with me.